nookncranny's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- stands with spunk i had moved away to california. i sat in the theater watching, with fascination, an archetype of a good woman, increasingly certain of my similarity to her. she was dignity. she was a noble bride in a healthy union. this was stabbing me in a sick, sore spot in my stomach. i unpacked my tattered tears, flagged them down their familiar route. "why? why doesn't he love me this way?" they chanted. i howled to the movie. "why can't i have that?!!? i know i could be a good mate if only..." she turned her head from her movie wedding bed towards me. "wait a minute" she speared at me. "you just said 'can't have that'. since when was that a forgone conclusion?" i was stunned. i hadn't realized, but there it was. a sneaky assumption patched to my spine. i stepped out of the theater into gorgeous sunlight. finally, and all at once a future materialized in front of me. - ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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